caroom broom pigeon

when you decide you want to lose the weight
you must realize that you are burning the insides down,
not the out.

we look in the mirror when we decide these things
but the reality is,
we want to be viewed as being beautiful
as much as we want to actually be it.
we desire to be treated like a beautiful person seems to be treated.

yet pounds come down from the insides,
not the out.

I’ve asked it before, where does the weight go?
and the answer I find, there’s two ways it can flow.
into the body or into the mind. heart or ego.
you can grow, or act like you know.

the part of Me that whispers,
"I am so hot. I am so cool."
is the ego.

and the part of I that proclaims
"I am so proud of how hard I’ve worked,
and what I’ve earned out of my body."
is the heart.

and you are always either selling phish
or your head is jones’n for those phones.
and I’ve found that at certain times of my life
I’ve sold sole.

and others,
danced soul.

when Me’s selling phish, I dish
out joshing, lies of musical affection
lifting wieghts, desiring an image of perfection
and if you are weak, you’ll see the reflection
of Me in your I’s
U’s Me.

and We do each
at different times.
I am learning to lean one way.

I Me
Human.

and God lives
in the space between.

don’t believe Me, You, or Anyone else.
We tell lies to ourselves,
which becomes the truth we believe

I dont need to sell phish.
phish sells itself.

I am trying the only way I can imagine to feel whole.
through the distance it takes to smile
I quest onto day, with my headphones.

If someone tries to communicate
when I have my headphones on,
I take them off, and see what they desire.
most people ignore me, and I dont take it personally.
I am, where I am.

Peace Be Internal.

and there are two or more sides
to one

and in this
self-realization
is trust
that learning,
you can work in,
to get out of it
what you want.



©2001 by Yosh