lifting weights early in the mourning

when I see people rioting over their joy
I wonder what would’ve happened if the Lakers had lost
In that way LA is no different
there’s something inhumane
about
happening everywhere

Did you hear of this shit in Central Park?
Where mob mentality took on loads of victims
mass molesting women who were there to have fun
sick
fuckin nasty
and what made it even worse
was that the Police
the people they paid taxes for
sat there and watched
saying they could do nothing

I am learning that they paid
but didn’t get what they paid for

what do we do?
what can we do?
what will we do?

a friend of mine has a theory
and I don't know if I believe it fully
but he says
its partly because of some artists
talking about bitches and ho’s,
or some other form of degrading woman
and the record companies who produce
or TV channels that deduce

as they make what sells
and not what teaches

maybe I own stuff is the same way
in some ways

maybe some of the stuff I’ve written in the past
is not the message I want to send
but I still hit send
and it not because I am trying shock or teach wrong
but that I don’t want to run from what has past
and embrace the days I’ve lived
but I am small business, not big

I can’t help but wonder if they feel guilty at all
or if they’d a sudden feel guilty if their own daughter’d fall
and we can’t blame them fully,
cause if they dont sell they get fired

then Big B will hire some new young duck
who wont be feel the guilt of using the word fuck
and now I’m part of it too

I ask myself if its each indvidual’s fault
cause I didn’t riot, I didnt fall
you can say what you want, I’m not the molester
But there are some out there, who will still call me chester

Every two weeks I get a check, and people drink their beer
I ask if the money is any worse than anyone else’s fear
but it doesn’t matter
cause the only time we ever want to be compared to another,
is when we inherently know we are wrong
would it be the same, if I was selling a bong?

I localize transition, and know my rent is due
I have One job within this life, to be a poet, just like you

but poets never out-sell
and poets most sell-out,
I’m doing the write thing for my self,
in this I have no doubt

when I riot its on paper
and molest, its with consent
I do have to explain,
what I do, and what I meant

and I will...

and its not FOR you
yet I want to share
because I know I’m 100% different
and I know I’m 100% the same

if I am used as a metaphor
even for just one second
I have learn
I have accomplish...

ments to tell you, that I love you
ments to say, we’re the same height
ments to ment, but didn’t tell you
mob mentality, is my fright

cause I needs to be I
in order not to be taken
and must make decisions on I own
in order to get life’s treasures
without harming another’s energy

be it joy, sorrow, pain or gain
the only thing thats accountable
is I-face and I-name...




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